Avenues

Please do read this at your own risk .. As suggested by Roy who seems to think Disclaimer should be put before reader get a chance to go through the content .This is not an intelligent blog ! I would not claim that it is beautiful either ! Yet I had to write ..Just to get it out of my head !
Recently I had a conversation with a friend of mine who incidently happened to be female . Usually I have very few female friends .They usually tend to be very offended by my very poor and unimaginative jokes and also the taste of movie and music . And yeah some do persist only due to their temprement which rival that of saints .
Unintentionally our conversation strayed into morality .She was worried to call herself a mallu seeing how her roommates were leading a life devoid of any sense of morality .They apparently came very late at night and had at times not come at all .She sounded like my grandmother in her moral lessons that she gave me that day . And her preference of Groom she said has to be a city dweller or some one who is used to city life.She said she had many friends and she would expect her husband to understand her friendship with these guys (No ironies ..sarcasm here please )
I was reminded of two people .One was Fredrich Netieshe .He was a german Philosopher .He strictly advocated a life questioning all diktats of morality .He questioned and made fun of all of our hypocritic moral and religious outlook of life . Is our love for an individual compromised to any extent just because we are with another individual . Does love demand that we be confining all our imagination,love and life with only the person we claim we are in love with .
He claimed that faithfullness was only a crude tool for sexual selection . You see tigers and lions .They have territory . They usually mate with a lioness and mark their territory with their piss .If another Lion happened to trespass into his territory he had to fight and establish . They defended their territory with claws and life .And if the other lion has won the fight , he would first kill the children of the previous lion . It was a cruel reality of feline social life . But it was a good evolutionary tool for these panthers .This ensured that only the strongest reproduced and passed on their genetic traits to the next generation . This ensured that the next generation of cubs had he strongest genes and their chances of survival was ensured by genetic superiority .
We humans ..our jealously .our possesiveness of things ..friends ..lovers .Marriage .Fidelity and very unfortunately our concept of love too is deeply rooted in this territorial pissings . We too would feel infuriated when our lovers ,friends ,wife , of the opposite sex had a relationship with another human/computer/internet friend what not !! We had fought world wars and killed several lives and ravaged civilizations itself in a feeling rooted in this territorial pissings .We felt jealous and insecure if our neighbours built nuclear weapons .We bombed their city and deprived mothers of their sons and joys just to have enough fossil fuels to foster our sense of well being .We felt jealous of all devloping countries which were advancing on the streets of capitalism . We called them a threat to national security . You see we close our eyes to all these injustices and brainlessness and call ourselves the most advances creatures with intelligence . Nietizhe questioned these very moral triats of ours and proposed free living ..Free living with all its perks and pangs .Do we really need this tools of sexual selection in among us humans with age of internet blogging.We already have enough population .People only think in terms of marriage . trust me Humans will outlive bacterias and dust too . We are now social beings .We need to ensure collective survival of a race ..not individual .We are intelligent enough to ensure that we survive without need to fight with claws and life !We could live as a collective family .Poly family ..A commune .Where sexuality is not exloited as a tool of evolution .Where an entire human life and his incredible intelligence is not wasted thinking about raising a family ..Kids ! Where humans supported each others feelings and cherished this human life they are endowed with .Where no one owned anything individually .Where everything and anything was shared and used for collective human growth . Where people did not own anything and was not owned by anything ..Devoid of religion .Devoid of nations .Living life .Enjoying some sixty odd years that we are gifted with .Without any worries . Where we cherish our planet earth .Where we would discover and marvel our forefathers .and one fine day die a life with feeling of having seen a rock show !
Another charector which she reminded me that day was the Charector of wife in the movie unfaithful . She was a liberated woman .with a really loving husband (Richard gere )Somehow mid life crisis drives her to a lover half her age .They have this affair running .And one fine day she finds her lover with another woman , She is completely broken . She confronts him ..He questions her sense of morality .She was a woman cheating her husband and she questions her lover when he is seen with another woman . Sarcasms of a modern sense of moral justice !

Of course both of them were hypocrites .Netiezshe prophesed a moral free societ yet lived life like a monk .He was even a celebate .I doubt if he was a virgin like me !! And this woman ..Liberated who upheld morality and faithfulness conveniently forget morality to cater and satiate her love ! I respect both .I AM BOTH yet a male too ! A virgin male !
No matter how modern we claim to think , we need to understand that we are deeply rooted in our territorial pissings , Jealousy ,this feeling ..this undercurrent of constant insecurity , where our sense of self is qeustionned constantly by behaviour and life of the one with whom we share our time and space with . Marriage was only a reinforcement of our hypocritic outlook of life .
I heard that man's intelligent and thinking mind is only as thin as Onion's out skin ,Deep inside of that is layers upon layers of evolutionary slumber . He was a lion , donkey and dog at times .All of his poetry , his prose and epic wars were only a sophisticated MASKS of his dull wit !
OFcourse there is always an exceptional human who thought from beyond his human frame .Who questionned this hypocracies .Who threatened and challenged this dwarf and imbecile thinking of our human leaders and religions . yeah he was last seen asking for water in a crucifix . He was poisoned ..killed tortured ..and threatened with Marriage ! At times ..kind poeple thought he was poet and honoured him/her with a booker prize

Humans ..Brothers and sisters of slumber ! I too was one of them . But when I question their stupidities ..our collective dark humour !… Well lets just say that I get my head banged against the bathroom door by my lovely room mates ! I do not make any inference here . No nothing I am implying here .I do not even say marriage and possesiveness is wrong . Only I ask you ..Implore you ..That we atleast aknowlege our hypocracies . Otherwise we would not be different from a blind monkey scratching his loins on top a nuclear weapon warhead ready to destroy life as we know it only because his wife had slept with his best friend

Humans being humans .. Read it completly only after reading the disclaimer ! I dont blame them ..I celebrate them and thank them ..To have gone through this and understood .. ! Thank you for reading this ! Please do leave your comments and views on the same ! And in case you need to bang my head against the bathroom door . Please atleast ensure that its clean ! (I mean my head )

Noise of internal mind

The equivalent of external noise is the inner noise of thinking. The equivalent of
external silence is inner stillness.
Whenever there is some silence around you — listen to it. That means just notice it.
Pay attention to it. Listening to silence awakens the dimension of stillness within
yourself, because it is only through stillness that you can be aware of silence.
See that in the moment of noticing the silence around you, you are not thinking.
You are aware, but not thinking.

Excerpts from Stillness speaks by Ekchart tolle

There is a great joy in being silent if you are not haunted by longings , anger , frustrations , love , lust or even hunger ! Some poets call it peace .It is beautiful , there are no words describing it ! Content .Some get it by doing something they truly love , Gardening , Driving , singing , painting , being with the one they love . Each person must find what they love to do . The satisfaction they get out of it is that of a lessening internal pollution .less noise and more silence it will enable them . For me its a myriad of things I love to do , Reading poetry has been one of them . I love to ride too ! Movement ! Colours , some Vibrant , some soothing ..mostly lively ! full of invigourating charm ! Life is herenow , come live and be silent so others get a chance to live too

The River

From the highest valleys I was born

Tears of god flow in my veins ..

People read their depth ..and called it my own

Anger , silence and laughter too were not mine

Some poets saw their poems too in me ,stories unfold ..yet untold

Lovers entwined their embrace on my shores and called me lovely

Generations ..of pollution and salvations too I contained

They saw a mirror and defined me with what they saw !

helpless I am in this flow ..without shape ..or identity

from the highest to the lowest .. I flow

In a path defined by every step I take

Cold I was.. to the one who was warm ……

And too hot I was for the one frigid !

One million lives ..fishes ,plants and some wild snakes too

Called me their home ,I gave life and took them too

Anger greed envy and love .life death and endless longings

Yet I was none .. and I was all too

A puzzle I was when words graced my ignorance

Without shape or sound ..I let my path shape my colours

It hurts ..but I cried not .bloodless wounds ..silent laughters

Surrendered I was ..to the push and pull of gravity

and rarely ..on a shrine ..to love too I heeded

Sinners and saints ..all grace my heart with equal footings

Procreation and defeacation all gave birth to my elements

Scars and tears of funerals to the flowers of births

Of tender feet of young life to the dead realisation of corpses

From the ignorant to the innocent ..I read them all yet I read none !

Knew it all yet remained ignorant ! Readings lost in sunlight ..

Cold and frozen I am in december ..I would not move or even breath ..

Yet alive is the dead in me ! so I may live to see and flow

On the first ray of morning light ..Sometimes it takes all afternoon

or even days of intense heat .. to help me wake up ..from the deepest of slumber ..

Then I flow again ..carrying memories of frozen days ..

My prayers to flow again was greeted with flowers of spring ..

and graced too was I by the falling wisdom of autumn leaves ..

but I outlived seasons , shapes , and vast infinite expanses

Toward my lover , I flow ..towards her silence and laughter are my journey ..

Only hours .. it has only been hours since I started my journey ..

Yet I seemed to have covered one million eternal miles towards my prayers ..

Towards my very blood and towards my very heart beat !

Wide awake is my lovers hand in entwining me towards eternity

But I was to lose myself and find myself in her ..

In her I was no more ..but with her I was infinitely more ..

She was the death of the ME in me ! and i was born as her !

My memories evaporated in her warmth and i forgot what I tried to remember

We both melted into each other .. River into sea and sea into eternity ..into love ..



Into an icecream !

Nethi NEthi

In Indian Philosophy there is some thing called "Nethi, Nethi..." (Spelling may not be correct). its meaning is "this is not, this is not...". They use this philosophical term to describe God. That is God (Super power is so big) and all encompassing, so that we cannot understand that existence fully. God is everywere and in everything we can see God (Super Power). So ordinary human being may confuse the ordinary things of the world as God (Super Power) and may attach themselves on that worldly things, which may have some qualities of God. eg: God is not air, even though air can reach every were; God is not water, even though water can purify things; God is not ocian, even though it can be the dwelling place of many creatures; God is not sun, even though sun illumine everything. NOW YOU MAY BE THINKING WHY ON EARTH I AM TALKING ABOUT GOD (SUPER POWER) WHEN YOU ASKED ABOUT SPIRITUALITY. The reason is very simple. Spirituality like God (Super Power) is so immessurable, it is not possible to define spirituality. The method to understand spirituality is to use "Nethi" Philosophy. But before we go to that, the very word spirituality means "something related to Spirit". and in Individual case it is something related to once own spirit.

Now here we have to see what exactly this spirituality is not, but may be thought of the sings of sipirituality. We have to understand why a particualar thing may include some aspects of spirituality, but may not be the whole of spirituality. HERE AGAIN WE HAVE TO UNDERSTAND ANOTHER ASPECT ABOUT LOGICAL CONCLUSION. IF I TAKE A PARTICULAR SUBJECT AND IF I ACTUALLY EXAGERATE IT, WILL IT STILL BE SIGN OF SPIRITUALITY - IF NOT THEN THAT PARTICULAR SUBJECT MAY HAVE SOME QUALITIES OF SPIRITUALITY, BUT MAY NOT BE THE REAL SPIRITUALITY. Now combaining this Logical conclusion method and Nethi philosophical method you wil be able to know wether particular aspect of behaviour is spirituality. LET US ANALYSE WITH EXAMPLE. Love: is that spirituality. at the first site it is. And to be spiritual love should be there. But when we exagerate love, love can go to the level of possesiveness, or love of inordinate things...etc. So love without balace is not spirituality. Hatred. Is that spirituality. At the first site it may seem that hatredness toward unholy things is sign of spirituality, but when hatredness extend to jelousiness it is not spiritualtiy. Rituals: sign of spirituality, but adherence to rituals without having human heart is not spirituality. patience: sign of spirituality, but patience which stop a person reacting to evil is not spirituality. SO MAY BE IN A WAY WE CAN DEFINE THAT SPIRITUALITY IS A KIND OF BALANCE, A MIDDLE PATH. THE MOMENT A PERSON LOSES THIS BALANCE, THE MIDDLE PATH THE PERSON GOES OUT OF THE WAY OF SPIRITUALITY

The one who made me find god

Fear of commitment

Fear of commitment -Excerpts from Osho talks
63

By Myriad



Fear of commitments

The Fear of Commitment

Only through decisions do you become more and more conscious, only through decisions do you become more and more crystallized, only through decisions do you become sharp. Otherwise one becomes dull.

People go on from one guru to another, from one master to another, from one temple to another - not because they are great seekers but because they are incapable of decision. So they go from one to another. This is their way to avoid commitment.

The same happens in other human relationships: a man goes from one woman to another, goes on changing. People think he is a great lover; he is not a lover at all. He is avoiding, he is trying to avoid any deep involvement because with deep involvement problems have to be faced, and much pain has to be gone through. So one simply plays safe; one makes it a point never to go too deeply into somebody. If you go too deep you may not be able to come back easily. And if you go deeply into somebody, somebody else will go deeply into you also; it is always proportionate. If I go very deep in you the only way is to allow you also to go that deep in me. It is a give and take, it is a sharing. Then one may get entangled too much, and it will be difficult to escape and the pain may be much. So people learn how to play safe: just let surfaces meet - hit-and-run love affairs. Before you are caught, run.

This is what is happening in the modern world. People have become so juvenile, so childish; they are losing all maturity.

Maturity comes only when you are ready to face the pain of your being; maturity comes only when you are ready to take the challenge. And there is no greater challenge than love.

To live happily with another person is the greatest challenge in the world. It is very easy to live peacefully alone, it is very difficult to live peacefully with somebody else, because two worlds collide, two worlds meet...totally different worlds. How are they attracted to each other? Because they are totally different, almost opposite, polar opposites.

It is very difficult to be peaceful in a relationship, but that is the challenge. If you escape from that, you escape from maturity. If you go into it with all the pain, and still continue going into it, then by and by the pain becomes a blessing, the curse becomes a blessing.

By and by, through the conflict, the friction, crystallization arises. Through the struggle you become more alert, more aware.

The other becomes like a mirror to you. You can see your ugliness in the other. The other provokes your unconscious, brings it to the surface.

You will have to know all hidden parts of your being and the easiest way is to be mirrored, reflected, in a relationship.

Easier, I call it, because there is no other way - but it is hard. It is hard, arduous, because you will have to change through it.

When you come to a Master an even greater challenge exists before you: you have to decide, and the decision is for the unknown, and the decision has to be total and absolute, irreversible. It is not a child's game; it is a point of no return. So much conflict arises. But don't go on continuously changing, because this is the way to avoid yourself. And you will remain soft, you will remain babyish. Maturity will not happen to you.

Only the unknown should have a call for you because that you have not yet lived; you have not moved in that territory. Move! Something new may happen there.

Always decide for the unknown, whatsoever the risk, and you will grow continuously.

But go on deciding for the known and you move in a circle with the past again and again. You go on repeating it; you have become a gramophone record.

And decide. The sooner you can do so, the better. Postponement is simply stupid. Tomorrow you will also have to decide, so why not today? And do you think that tomorrow you will be wiser than today? Do you think that tomorrow you will be livelier than today? Do you think that tomorrow you will be younger than today, fresher than today?

Tomorrow you will be older, your courage will be less; tomorrow you will be more experienced, your cunningness will be more; tomorrow death will come closer; you will start wavering and being more afraid. Never postpone for the tomorrow. And who knows? Tomorrow may come or may not come. If you have to decide you have to decide right now.

Food and spirituality

Food and spirituality
56

By Myriad



Excerpts from Osho Talks

Our Seven Bodies

"Patanjali divides the human personality into five seeds, five bodies. He says you don't have one body; you have layers upon layers of bodies; and they are five.

"The first body he calls annamaya kosha - the food body, the earth body, which is made of earth and is constantly to be nourished by food. Food comes from the earth. If you stop taking food your annamaya kosha will wither away. So one has to be very alert about what one is eating because that makes you and it will affect you in millions of ways. Sooner or later your food is not just food. It becomes blood, your bones, your very marrow. It circulates in your being and goes on affecting you. So the purity of food creates a pure annamaya kosha, a pure food body.

"If the first body is pure, light, not heavy, then it is easy to enter into the second body; otherwise it will be difficult - you will be loaded. Have you watched when you have eaten too much and heavy foods? Immediately you start feeling a sort of sleep, a sort of lethargy. You would like to go to sleep; awareness immediately starts disappearing. When the first body is loaded it is difficult to create great awareness. Hence fasting became so important in all the religions. But fasting is a science and one should not fool around with it.

"Just the other night a woman came and she told me that she has been fasting and now her whole body, her whole being, is disturbed, tremendously disturbed. Now the stomach is not functioning well. And when the stomach is not functioning well, everything is weakened; the vitality is lost and you cannot be alive. You become more and more insensitive and dead.

"But fasting is important. It should be done very carefully; one should understand the functioning of the annamaya kosha - only then. And it should be done under proper guidance - the guidance of one who has moved through all the phases of his annamaya kosha. Not only that: one who has gone beyond it and who can look at the annamaya kosha as a witness. Otherwise fasting can be dangerous. Then just the right amount of food and the right quality of food has to be practiced; fasting is not needed.

"But this is important because this is your first body and people more or less cling to their first body; they never move to the second. Millions of people are not even aware that they have a second body, a deeper body, hidden behind the first sheath. The first covering is very gross.

"The second body Patanjali calls pranamaya kosha - the energy body, electric body. The second consists of electric fields. That's what acupuncture is all about. This second body is more subtle than the first, and people who start moving from the first body to the second become fields of energy, tremendously attractive, magnetic, hypnotic. If you go near them, you will feel vitalized, charged.

"If you go near a man who lives only in his food body, you will be depleted; he will suck you. Many times you come across people and you feel that they suck you. After they have left, you feel depleted, dissipated, as if somebody has exploited your energy. The first body is a sucker and the first body is very gross. So if you live too much with the first - with body-oriented people- you will feel always burdened, tense, bored, sleepy, with no energy, always at the point of the lowest rung of your energy; and you will not have any amount of energy which can be used for higher growth.

"This type, the first type, the annamaya-kosha-oriented person lives for food. He eats and eats and eats, and that's his whole life. He remains childish, in a way. The first thing that the child does in the world is to suck air, and then to suck milk. The first thing the child has to do in the world is to help the food body, and if a person remains food addicted, he remains childish. His growth suffers."